I swear.
My lings are the smexiest thangs in the world <3

/.
gosh.
I take back the bad cosplay comment I made a few posts back. I found more good cosplayers!
but alas...I found a rather...ecke Gazette team.

...even some cosplayers were rather adorable ^_^
hurrah! more motivation to cosplay! I wanna cos Ishizu Ishtar from YGO!, but at one of the smaller events. Next year's EOY, I'm going as Teruki [AnCafe] from the Tekesuta Kousen PV. LALALALA i'll be in a suit. ooo.
and then I'll have to do my Shinya cos. nn. I want to cos him more often. <3
AND OMG DADA COSER!!! <3<3<3
sho purdy

ok now I need sleep. nite nite.

-hitomi

If you get more than 30 you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29 you normal.
If you get 11 to 20 you are pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
People who don't have any are jerks who want people to think they are tough stuff.

Everyone fears something... you just have to find the right thing.


I Fear...

[] gay people
[] the dark
[] being single forever
[] being a parent
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] heights
[] black cats
[] birds
[] fish
[] ants
[] driving
[] flying
[] flowers or other plants
[] being touched
[] fire
[] dark water
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[x] my boy/girlfriend's/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad
[x] my boy/girlfriend's/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom
[] mice/rats
[] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
[] wind
[] cotton balls
[] cemeteries
[] large crowds
[] crossing bridges
[] death
[] Heaven
[] being robbed
[] men
[] women
[x] having great responsibility
[] doctors, including dentists
[]tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] diseases
[] snakes
[] sharks
[] shots
[] Friday the 13th
[] poverty
[] ghosts
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains or railroads
[] odd numbers.
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[] being blind
[] being deaf
[] growing up
[] monsters under my bed
[] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[]blood
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] someone you love or care about hurting you
[] love
[x] losing my loved ones
[] Spiders
[x] God
[] Other

.....7.
SEVEN OUT OF SEVENTY-TWO.
....=.=
nnn. I'm...fearless. I guess. wahahaha.
I realized today that I've never had an argument with Ash. Have never started one either.
IT'S THOSE OTHER PEOPLE WHO MAKE HIM ANGRY >O

stupid idiots. nn.

that's all for today.

-hitomi

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watching : FRIENDS
mood : ....

I still have food poisoning. gah.


...And I didn't go for EOY. I'm glad I didn't.

I realized that a majority of Singaporeans are NOT fit for cosplaying. It's really so...disappointing ._. My motivation to cosplay increased, surprisingly. Like to show em I could do it so much better. wahahahaha.

My sempai did an amazing job cosplaying Kyo sama though. Both Hara and Kai. Mizuki cosplayed as well, but I wasnt sure who she was cosing. I think it was Jui..I forgot >_>
nnn.
I feel like puking at the thought of food now.

-hitomi

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Listening to : The Domestic Fucker Family - Dir en Grey
Mood : Bitchy.


the following will contain several swear words, thus making my rant seem obscene and uncouth. I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

nnn.

[rant]
No one can control who they fall in love with. We can't control that anymore than we can control the weather. SO, EXPLAIN TO ME WTFH ARE PEOPLE TRYING TO CONTROL HIM AND WHO HE LIKES?
Even if the girl of his dreams does so happen to come along after I go away, I doubt she'd be anymore innocent than I would be. Fine, so you think the way I dress is loud? Shameless?
FINE. SEE IF I REALLY FUCKING CARE.
Life's too short, it can't be lived wearing boring clothes in your youth.
Don't give me bullshit reasons. We're not getting married. We're just going out. That's all. So if you fuckers really want to control him, fine, do so, by all means. You are family, and so family knows what's best for an angst-ridden teenager. Suuuuuuure. Okay. I very much want your blessing, but then again, you're not my parents, nor his, so back off will ya?
And btw, don't bug on him just because you're jealous that you don't have a boyfriend. Don't make noise. Just sssshhhh and stfu pls.
Don't try to end our relationship just because yours is going down the drain. Don't tell me that I'm incapable of trying to even sustain anything that resembels a relationship. You can't do any better, really.
And so, if you want me to back off, sure, I'll be respectful and back off. But really, I'd very much like to dare you bitches to find me someone who treats me better than Ash does.
You know you'll fail.
And what are you afraid of? That I'm going to just use him and then throw him away?
Do you really think I'm that sort of person?
Whatever. Don't give me lame excuses and say that I'm too young for a relationship dammit. You won't even let him talk to me. Huh. How wonderful.
I hope you know, if he kills himself it'll be on your conscience. But then again, you wouldn't care would you? You'd be more than happy to dance on his grave and kick the soil loose. You'd never tell me because you're my best friend. But I know.
...Fuck you and your incapability to handle other people being happy.
You just can't accept the fact that he isn't the same person you left behind in Singapore a year ago, can you?
You can't accept the fact that he only seems to be caring, loving and and actual feeling person to me alone, can you? You can't accept the fact that he's a different person from the gritty doom and gloom cousin from a year ago, can you?
You can't even seem to accept the fact that he has a reason to be happy, just for once in his life. What a wonderful cousin you must be.
I'd very much like to taunt you in person. But no, I'm far too immature, I rant about it publicly on my blog.
I really don't have the heart to really and truly hate you.
Because you're all like my own sisters, and I could never hate family. Another great flaw in my grand design.
I want to be selfish, just for this. I'm tired of giving people the things they want, letting them be satisfied with my lies, and deceiving them like I breathe air. I promised my parents long ago that I'd always tell the truth, I guess I broke that promise.
So I'm telling the truth now.
Deal with it girl, and don't give me lame excuses. I don't want to see things from your point of view, I want you to see things from my point of view. Hell, even if you were in love with my worst enemy, I'd try to see things your way.
Oh, but I guess that's the difference between you guys and me. I actually give the bad guys a chance.
hm.
fuck.
you.
all.
[/rant]





-anis.

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Listening to : Cold Sleep - Velvet Eden
Mood : Headache XD LOL that's not a mood XDDD

KAY JIA I R UPDATING NOWWWWW =DD
mostly random updates.
My cosplay still isn't done DX it's at the tailor's for now, and she reassures me that it'll be done by December 16th. God willing.
I've been listening to a whole lot of Velvet Eden. It's calming. And my lack of fangirling surprising everyone. woooaaa. SEE LA ASH WHAT YOU DID TO ME. XDD
no more fangirling. o_o
I made Ash talk to mummy. And now she knowwwssss -le gasp- She was like, "OOOOOoooh so I was right la. Your boyfriend's name IS Ash " and then Uncle Din too LOL.
She was like, OMG YOU'RE 16???? when Ash told her. XDD I was laughing my ass off. But he was mad that I told them. He said it was too early. We got that cleared up though.
MUMMY GAVE ME A DIAMONTE HELLO KITTY NECKLACE. and cute ring and matching earrings. homfg I feel so girly now. I'm getting too used to MSN, look at the amount of emotifaces thingies I use.
GAH. Ash's meeting mum and Uncle Din on Monday =O AND Azri.
OMFG.
OMFG.
OMFG.
Sofi gave me Charmy Kitty mini plushie! It's so cuteeeee.
-slaps self-
..I'm really girly.
The soft spot for decora. And..cute things. Meh.
Mum thought Ash wasn't a Malay. XD he doesn't sound it. Neither do I. LOL.
Anyhu, my head is throbbing, andddd I dunnoe what else to type.
I think I'm losing my touch ><

-hitomi