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Listening to : Reveil en sursaut d'un rae - Cinema Strange
Mood: Sleepy

Ecke Blogger crapped on me >.>
So now Im in beta. It's better really. ecke.
Went out for raya just now, got myself some much needed moolah. omg yessssssssss


I want to get baby his gundam. Fuckkkkk my brother wants one too.
I pokai already le >.>




*ahem*
Anyhu..
I've had Tafel on constant replay since um the time I got it?
Until this morning when baby sent me songs 8D They are love yo. I'm suprised I like them even. Maybe it's cause they're his songs. XDDDD Reveille. They are okay...woa. English. Not Engrish le. XDDD


oooh.It's late now. I've got drama tomorow...hell I dont wanna go. Couldn't really arse myself to start caring for anything related to school, apart from maybe my lings.LOL lingssss sometimes you piss me off. So nya, it depends on my mood. LING I NEED MY REPORT BOOK FROM YOU LE. I WANT TO SEE WHAT MS LOW WROTE ABOUT ME XDD



oh dear I can be am soooo self centered. AH AHAHAH.
hnn.



riight then. I forgot the whole point of my post now. OH OH I REMEMBER xD





BABY- joo are so sweet. Kya you make me melt. omg I fangirl over your prose >.>
I wanna write you something too. Be warned though. My stuff sucks shit.
AND HOW'D YOU GET TO BE SO SEXY??????
hitomi wants to know lol
SHE HAS A SEXY SMITH


...and
LING- GIMME MY REPORT BOOOOOOKKKKKKKKK


okay end.





-hitomi

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listening to : Phantom Pain - D
Mood: Feverish - my fever strikes back with vengence ><


TAFELLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thank you for keeping it baby -kisses for joo-

and OMFG does it rock. The photobook is so darn pretty. OMG CAN THEY GET ANY SEXIER!?!
-faints-


-revives-
Anyhu.
I love Saturdays. I really do.
and I might get some decent lyrics written. I might. -smiles-


I just might.










by the morning light
we'll be half way to anywhere
where love is more than just your name.


-hitomi
omg feeling reminscent already? it's Evanescence to the rescue >.>

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Listening to: Glow in the sun
mood: feverish, but happy.




......I'm not letting you go.
















hitomi.

I got Tafel. I'm so in love with D now..
^-^

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listening to: Love means Sacrifice - D
Mood: ...elated?



...I've found a new muse.
and I believe that I have a smile on my face.
yes, in fact I do.









=)
It's been some time, ne, smile?

Shiroi Yoru.

{White Night}//translated

faraway, the birds were singing
the sound of footsteps crunching snow
I don't react
because I don't want to react

the wind is passing through
powdery snow wets the eyelashes
I can't see anything
because I don't want to see anything

the snow takes you away at the end of winter
in this white world, I am gently killed

when I meet you once again, let's disappear completely here
like the snow thawing and flowing, I also wish to melt away

frozen in this lightless night at the end of winter
this white world is adorned with the crystals* of my sorrow

but only the number of memories that passed on with you lie thickly in my breast
the seasons repeat, before long, I suppose morning comes however now...
when I meet you once again, let's disappear completely here..

hitomi.

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listening to : Leukocyte - D
mood: ...pissed.

My Tafel is being held hostage at Ash's. Hope I can get it soon.
aaaaa. I don't wanna go back to mum's. I'm tired. And sick.
I can't lug myself back there. T^T
I'll just stay here.
and sleep.
yeah.











I've endured your pain
and I've endured your sorrow.
I can give you all my happiness
and I want nothing in return
I give you my love and joy
I'll take your agony and hurt
I give you my all.

-hitomi.

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Listening to : Kaya - Remains of mind
mood:...distressed.



I can't like you.
Not in that way. I want to, really. I found myself thinking of you, late at night, when I was down with high fever. And of all people I could've thought about, it was you. You stayed in my mind for a long time, and I fell asleep remembering your face.
I don't know why. It has been some time.
I want to like you so much, but I think of the consequences such a liking would bring.
You bring the darkness back that I've fought so hard to vanquish, and you bring the hate that I've longed for so long to disapper.
I cannot imagine going through what you're going through now. I can only say that I'm going crazy, and sometimes it feels like I really am. But I'm fine. No mental ailments as of yet.
You were on my mind when I was sick. And all I could think of was how much of a good person you've been towards me. But I don't know whether your actions hold double meanings.
I get paranoid you see.


------------------------------------

I've decided to become a Shinya-ist; Shinya cosplayer. I love that tiny man =3


hitomi.

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listening to": Yami yori kurai dokuko no A CAPELLA to bara yori akai jonetsu ARIA
mood: ....=.=

A big, huge, THANK YOU to Ash and Sumie for helping me get Tafel Anatomie.
I love you guys so much~

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Listening to: Calling me -D
mood: ...sleepy.

I'M CRAVING FOR CHOCO.omg.
I cant have choco. CHOCO MAKES ME FATTER. omg. Plus, it kills my throat.
eeeeeeww.


AND OMG THIS SONGS ROCKS.
OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG
OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG
OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG
OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG.


*ahem*
I've been wanting to update, but I just couldn't arse myself to do so 8D
yes Im a lazy person.


EDIT:
Listening to : Alice - D
It's about 150 am on a SUNDAY MONDAY morning.
I am so fucking screwed.
AND AND~


my new glasses 8D
I've just realized my big ass picture's gunna screw up my layout. Ah whatever.
Been busy on msn talking to friends from overseas. And some local ones too. I feel empty inside and that what I'm doing right now is worthless. Like whatever.
I'm not satisfied with my own voice, I set up standards that are too high. And to lower them is more difficult than I thought it would be. I find that I sound too flat, and that I realize that my breathing's really shallow- just like those dumbass idiots on Singapore Idol.

I can't write lyrics as easily as I used too, and now Im convinced that I'm seriously twisted, and not in a good way. Then again, when was being twisted ever good?

Whatever. I can't even draw now. Fuck this depressive crap. I hate going to school (what's new??) because it fucking sucks. I'm a paranoid person at the moment, mostly driven nearly insane by my D obsession. I need money, not only to pay for my irrelevant wants, but for my phone bills, etc. I get seriously annoyed whenever a teacher or any other person that's older then me starts poiting out that I'm, "Still young and innocent, and doesn't worry about things like bills..and blablabla"

like mmhmh kay,
EXCUSE ME.
I FUCKING WORRY ABOUT HOW MY DAD'S GUNNA PAY THE BILL EVERY MONTH, AND I WORRY ABOUT MUCH MONEY HE HAS TO SPEND ON ME AND MY BROTHERS
AND I FUCKING WORRY ABOUT HOW MY MUM IS GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH THE MONTH.

-fumes-
-calms down-
I think I listened to my mp3 for too long, my ear's going a bit wonky.
huh.

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Listening to: Ever After - D
mood: stuffed

wheee!
I get to eat now *_* salvation...


AAAAAAAA TAFEL ANATOMIEEEE ISSS OUTTT NOOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
OMFG.
OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

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Watching: Gothikaroid - Vidoll
mood: surprisingly chipper.

I've just read a translation of Asagi sama's recent journal entry...and I've become even more obsessed with him. He is such a compassionate person..and so sweet too.

aaah.

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VOCAL PWNAGE.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgn2a8Jz9nY

after Asagi sama and Jui and Satsuki of course ^_^
wheeee MM fangirling in the mornings are gooooood. I love this song, it's good live. I can't undersatnd why Klaha doesn't sing live more often,and Shiroi hada ni kuruu ai to kanashimi no rondo is a pretty hard song to sing live. And what really amazes me is that I can actually do this song without much difficulty.

go me =3

yessss i'm in a better mood now. yay me.

see how self-centered I am?
mememememeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
>DDDDD

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Listening to : Mushi - Dir en Grey
Mood: A little pissed


like zomg I think I just got flammed >DDDD
I was like," wtf..??" On some ooooold LJ comment I gave on one of a D community while I was still fangirling over Corvinus.

ahhhhh ya know what bitch?
Screw yourself, I was fangirling. You may a big ol bitch who just loves Asagi just because he can only sing well, so what? I'm a big ol bitch who loves Asagi as a whole. Godammit. Apparently, I give people who have a "passing liking in Japanese music a bad name".



Well bitch, if you haven't already notice, there are thousands of crazy bitches liking guys merely for their looks. Especially Jrockers, since they're exposed through the media and whatever shit, they're a more likely target for female teens to just love but never know who they really are.

I'm not saying I know Asagi personally, but I love his work, and from what I can tell, he has a beautiful mind.
Like wtf you're telling me that I give a bad name to j-music lovers just because I added more random comments along with my fangirling?
I said that the LA band in the vid looked extra. I said they didnt belong. That's it.
WTF is your fucking problem?
-spazzes-
-rolls away-

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watching: 繭月の棺 - D
mood: nyappy!

for the first time ever. kyaaaaa~
more random updates..and fangirling. AAAAA D IS LOVE <3
wonder why the PV version is more sexier than the recorded version...My mp3 died T_T so no music, and Im forced to turn to youtube for music. T_T I can't watch PVs annnnnd read fanfics at the same time.
lol this PV reminds me of when Asagi was still in Je*Reviens..the arm-flailing..xDD he likes playing with his hair ne? aaa minna is so..hot.
rrriiiiiiiiiiight. Now I type like a civilized, coherent person. -laughs- sure. yeah.
Anyways, Lit paper's tomorow, WHICH MEANS IT"S THE LAST PAPER!!! I"LL BE FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. omfg. Then we're going through the papers =_=/'' how depressing.
Band meeting on Saturday,as well as Hara's birthday celebration <3
whee am counting down.
it turns out I can't possibly save up to go to Japan (unless by some miraculous occurance) y this year, but prolly next year, around spring maybe.
God willing, maybe.
T_T
ah well, I guess I wont be seeing D anytime soon. In the mean time, I'll be a crazy money-saving witch. Sweet >D
My tummy is grumbling, and I still have like 5 more hours till I can break fast. kyaaa.
At least I might get to go to Japan and meet someone I know there >.> oooooooo
she's coming allllll the way from America..so I hope the D boys are doing something >_<

HUZZAH!

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watching: Setsurenka - Lareine
mood: distressed >_< [random post, mostly complaining and fangirling over stuff] Im really starting to love Lareine now. They've just disbanded not too long ago, less than a week ago ne T^T Kamijo's voice..is so...different. When I first heard him I thought he sounded kinda..nasal. xD buuuuuut~ he's good. Especially for balads like Setsurenka. He is so pretty too <3 color="#ff0000" size="5">D IS STARTING THEIR TOUR NEXT WEEK.
OMFG I SO WANNA GO. I hate having debts. T_T
Dad says an economic class ticket is about S$800 to go to Tokyo. Someone on Lj is helping me look the up the dates and everything. aaa.
Apparently, their tour ends two months from now. omfg. I think I can try to save about S$2000 or something. like..alot. T_T
I owe HARU S$90 more! and I have to pay for my CORVINUS or else they'll cancel my order. Someone come accompany me to the post office please T^T Hara is so busy..cant really as her. Mummy also has school..she finishes late. AAA AND SHE SAYS SHE GUNNA TELL HELVANS KEYBOARDIST THAT I LIKE HIM.
O_O i dont. I just said that he was pretty, is all. T_T
I miss my family. T_T (nope, not my real one, my 'family' xDDD)
What's more, I dont have to worry about accomodation, because there's someone on LJ willing to take me in! -dances around- ahah she lives in Tokyo,go figure.



EXAMS ARE ALMOST OVER.
\m/
than im free for the next few weeks X__________X
now im gunna go figure out how to raise a coupla thousand dollars to send my arse off to JAAAPAAAAAANNNN~!!!


:O
hitomi~

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watching: Rentrer en Soi - Bunretsu LE+ DD jinkaku
mood: HUNGRY T_T

like yeah.
I watched Ev's new vid.
Can't say I love it. in fact, I'm thinking, "WTF????" Amy Lee doesn't even sound like Amy Lee, and that song didnt sound Evanescence, it sounded like mainstream rock.

WTFH??!?!?!??!?!?!?

Only when the song went into this whole bridge thing did I recognize her. Love the outfit though. I might just cosplay her red-riding hood thingo one day.
The only other thing that still remained were her lyrics. Too bad I didnt pay that much attention to remember.
I know they're trying out smething new, Amy erself said something about embracing some...newfound.shit..which I forgot cause I read that stupid MTV article like months ago. The Open Door was just releasd today. Yet I couldnt really give a shit.
woo.
Forgive meEvanescence.
T_T
ah well. Im waiting for Tafel Anatomie to come out~
no more Ev. O_O
wow. I actually said it. er..typed it. No more Evanscence for Hitomi. no.
Not if they're gunna continue like this. Something about that song just makes me urkesome and squirm when I hear it. too bad.

:/